I chose to use a rainbow for my reflections as it reminds us of all the key workers who have kept working through this isolation period. The rainbow is outlined with difficulty – the red of anxiety on the very outside and the black of atrocities in the centre.

But in between there are colourful positives and this depicts my overall reflection.

Helen Shakespeare



Red is for the anxiety that has encased and outlined this whole pandemic period.

Sometimes it leads the way and other times I can deep-breath-it away.

Red is for other people’s anger; for people that have found their temper explodes more easily.

Anger about the restrictions; about the changes; about the loss of control; about the loss of jobs.

Red is for the anger about not being able to see and hold those we love.


Orange is for the deepening of relationships; it’s for true connection.Orange is for the talking on line; on the phone and on the doorstep.

Orange is for the unusual – the unusual blessings;

it’s for all the talking in my head.

Orange is sociable; it’s for the connections – in my home, with my family, with my friends, in work conversations and with strangers.

Orange comes when you mix yellow and red.


Yellow is for the sun – we’ve been blessed to see so much of it during lockdown.It’s for the rays of light in dark times.

It’s for the smiles and connections we’ve had to make in the absence of touch.

Yellow is for the moon on clear nights;

it’s for the satellites and shooting stars;

it’s for the beautiful sunrise and sunset in unpolluted skies.


Green is for the planet recovering.We may have felt hemmed in and stuck with no planes, or trains and limited travel –

but we’ve helped to clear the air. Green is for nature being able to breathe again.

It’s the calm in the storm.

Green is the colour of the spaces we’ve been grateful for – parks, gardens and outside.


Blue is for the things that have made me sad – like families without food;families who have lost their loved ones;

people who have died alone;

people who couldn’t say goodbye;

people who are frail and alone.

Blue is for the increase in depression and it’s the colour of a lack of motivation.


Purple is for what I have learnt in isolation.I’ve learnt about the power of deep breathing.

I’ve learnt where I stand; who my friends are and what’s important to me.

I’ve learnt I’m positive, creative, resilient, generous in thought and time.

I love what I’ve learnt.


Black is for the killing of George Floyd;it’s for the stabbings –

it’s to remind us that black lives matter.

It’s for domestic violence and abuse;

it’s for the injustice in the world.

Black is for dark times, the colour of a hole;

for times when hope hides.